When Eve crawled out of her warm
nest of plaid robe and netting, she saw that the hut was empty
and was about to panic when she breathed a drift of woodsmoke
and realised that Wade was just outside, probably getting breakfast.
Yawning and stretching, she wandered out into the hazy morning
sunlight, to find the kettle on the fire, and Wade busily lathering
his chin. He had attached his shaving-mirror to a branch and
was stripped of his shirt, his trousers belted against his firm
brown body.
Eve caught the scrape of the blade
through the strong growth of beard and she had a feeling he was
watching her through the mirror.
"You had a good night,"
he said. "Slept sound as an infant in its cot, even though
the thunder kept on for quite a while."
"I do feel rested," she
said, and glanced about the compound, where moisture was still
dripping from the surrounding trees. Over everything there hung
the scent of wet foliage, and there was a busy chattering and
whistling in the bush. "What are we having for
breakfast?"
"How about smoky bacon, with
eggs and toast?" he drawled.
"Don't torture me," she
groaned. "It looks as if we'll have to make do with smoky
beans straight from the can.
[97-98] "Eve," he turned
to face her with half his face shaven clean, "aren't you
curious that we have water in the kettle? Last night the water-bottle
was empty, this morning it's full."
"You mean--?"
He nodded, the sun on the warm coppery
gleam of his skin. Eve felt a sudden tumult of her pulses, an
awareness of her own scarecrow appearance.
"A river," she breathed.
"That means we can bathe and catch fish and be a little
civilised!"
"Later on," he agreed.
"But right after breakfast I want to explore the village
for any useful implements, and I want to take a look at the trees
around here. There's also the chance that when the villagers
ran off they left behind them a few vegetables in their patches
of cultivated ground. Can you see to the tea while I finish off
my face?"
"Yes, bwana."
Eve was suddenly optimistic, and she liked the feel of the sunlight
on her face as she set about making breakfast for them. Wade
was tough and tantalising, and he could be diamond-hard when he
chose, but given half a chance he'd make that boat and they'd
get away on the water without having to take their chance in the
jungle. She felt like singing, and compromised by whistling to
herself as she opened the beans, replaced the lift halfway and
set the can carefully on the fire stones.
This wasn't such a bad place to
camp in for a while, not if she kept her mind firmly closed to
images of wild-eyed rebels through the bush, coming so suddenly
that Wade didn't have time to reach for his Breda. She shot him
a look and saw that he was wiping the soap from his face; the
shotgun was close at hand, leaning against [98-99] the tree on
which his mirror was suspended.
She felt reassured, and then he
turned to look at her and as their eyes met across the clearing
Eve felt a sudden weakness in her limbs. It was the first time
she had seen him clean-shaven and for a moment he was a stranger,
the roughneck replaced by a man of lean distinction, who in full
officer's uniform would look . . . dashingly attractive.
Suddenly she felt rather shy of
him and could feel an irregularity in her breathing as he swung
his Breda on to his bare coppery shoulder and began to stroll
across to her. Clad only in his khaki trousers there was a supple
rippling of hard muscle under the sun-darkened skin, and Eve felt
a stab of physical reaction that made her clench her teeth. She
hadn't known that awareness of a man could be so potent, like
a heady gulp of wine followed by an alarming mixture of weakness
and elation; added to which was the scared feeling that he was
going to guess how she felt.
With an effort of will she managed
to sound insouciant. "Tea's up, and the beans are smoking,
and do take a look at those little gold-breasted birds flying
about. Are they canaries?"
"Probably a wild species."
He rested the shotgun and gazed down at her, his lip quirking.
"Well, do you think I look a trifle more civilised now my
bristles are gone?"
"Don't tantalise me with your
manly beauty," she said demurely. "This isn't the garden
of Eden we're lost in."
"Touché."
There was a grating amusement in his drawl. "Glad to see
you're back on form and aren't letting this situation get you
down."
"Sunshine and bird-calls, and
hot sweet tea, can do [99-100] wonders for the morale, Major.
I'm making believe I'm on a camping trip with a local
scoutmaster."
He caught her gaze and made an intent
search of her eyes, then he added approvingly, "I wouldn't
have taken much of a bet on a high-society gal making much of
a companion in adversity, but you're proving me wrong, aren't
you?"
"So far," she said, handing
him his share of the tea. "Last night I lost a good mark,
but the rat took me by surprise. Normally I don't squeal like
that, and I've seen plenty of rats and bats at Lake House."
"The guardian's country seat,
I take it?"
"Yes, in Essex. I've boated
on the lake, so I should be able to do my share of the paddling
when you get the canoe ready for launching."
On the smooth waters, perhaps."
He leaned down to slide the can of beans off the fire. "But
some of these rivers run into rapids--we'll wait and see how things
go. Take care with this sauce, it's hot."
They tucked into their beans and
only had a couple of biscuits each, for they were fast running
out of them and they had to substitute for a longed-for slice
of bread.
He had brought back enough water
for Eve to be able to wash her face and hands, after which she
applied the hateful repellent. Wade washed his shirt in the one-legged
iron pot and hung it on a bush to dry in the sun. "Let's
hope a monkey doesn't run off with it," he said, and they
stood a moment watching the agile chimps flinging themselves about
in the high trees, chattering and showing their teeth to the pair
of human beings. Suddenly something bounced down hard near Wade's
feet, and he bent to pick up the object. It was a large coconut!
[100-101] "Manna from the
monkeys," Wade said delightedly. He shook the nut and the
liquid inside swished about. "Well, if we can find a few
more of these, we'll have coconut meat and milk to supplement
our diet. Fancy a piece right now?"
"No, I'll have some later on,
but you go ahead."
"No, I'll wait as well. I'm
eager to have a look round this place and do some scavenging."
He went into the hut and put the nut away with their dwindling
supplies of food, and then together they searched the ruins of
the other huts but found nothing that was still usable, but they
were lucky enough to find some patches of cultivation where upon
scraping with his hands Wade unearthed several large, knobbly-looking
yams, some wild spinach, and cobs of corn.
They were congratulating themselves
on this little crock of eatables, when to their astonishment they
heard a gobbling sound from among the bushes and the next instant
a turkey came pecking its way into the yard where they were standing.
It cocked an eye at them, and then went on thrusting its yellow
beak in and out of the dirt, where there must have been some stray
corn seed.
Wade caught Eve's glance and his
eyes cautioned her not to move and startle the bird, which despite
its rather scrawney appearance could provide them with a couple
of square meals. Eve wasn't chicken-hearted, but she had never
been right on the scene when a bird for the table had had its
neck wrung, but she knew from the look on Wade's face that he
was about to do just that the instant he got his hands on the
turkey.
He leapt, there was a wild squawk,
a flutter of feathers, and Eve turned away as the powerful hands
did their work. Why would he hesitate? She had to re-[101-102]member
all the time that Wade had killed men just as easily and efficiently;
that he had given himself to warfare as a monk to religion.
"You can open your eyes,"
he drawled. "And think of it like this, if I'm going to
build a boat I need to have my strength built up."
"It's just that a minute ago
the poor thing was pecking away without a care in the world, and
now--" Now the limp body hung from Wade's hand and there
wasn't even the remotest look of compunction in the steel-grey
eyes that met Eve's.
"We have to eat," he said
curtly. "There isn't a supermarket round the corner where
the frozen poultry is stacked in its container, having come from
the battery farm where those poor things never get a chance to
peck about in a yard. You'll enjoy your drumstick as much as
I shall, along with baked beans and some of these greens. A solid
meal will do wonders for both of us."
"I know that, but you're
so--"
"Is ruthless the word you're
searching for, Eve?"
"Not quite, but you are unmercifully
efficient when it comes to the crunch, aren't you?"
"I've had to be, lady. In
Malaya, Cyprus, Belfast--and out here. He who hesitates is a
goner. Now let's take this helpful hoard of food to the hut and
then we'll take a look at some of those trees that fell in the
storm last night."
"Can't you take me to the river
while you have a look round in the jungle?" she asked, carrying
greens and corncobs in her arms as they made their way back to
the hut. "It will be cooler there and after all that rain
there'll be swarm [sic] of insects among the trees."
"The trouble is, young Eve,
when you get near water [102-103] you're inclined to lose your
head, not to mention your pants. Can I trust you to be good?
Sometimes these rivers run an undertow and I don't want to see
you drowned now I've got you this far in one piece."
I'll be as good as gold,"
she promised eagerly. "I can read that book you put in your
knapsack, and you can get on with your--work."
"Don't we sound domesticated?"
he jeered. "Right, if you're going to behave yourself, then
you can sit by the river and read. Are you wearing a watch?"
"Yes, but it's stopped. I
forgot to take it off when I took a bath in the creek."
"That's what you get for being
too eager." He marched ahead of her into the hut and proceeded
to tear a chunk of the mosquito netting so he could wrap the turkey
until he had time to pluck it. They placed the vegetables in
the iron pot, and Eve asked him if she might borrow his book.
"You're welcome," he said.
"It's a Carter Dickson, but don't you dare tell me the
ending."
"He's good, isn't he? Thanks."
She caught the book as Wade tossed it. Then he came over and
thrust something else into her hand--a packet of nuts and raisins.
"They'll keep up your vitality."
He stood looking down at her, and then, casually, he pushed a
stray lock of hair back from her eyes. "You do realise,
Eve, that we're in the middle of a revolt and there may come a
moment when I shall have to do to a man what I did to that bird?
Out here you do it silently if you can, because a shot can be
heard a long way off, and you get the stray rebel who breaks away
from the rest, pillaging on his own, or attempting to get back
to his family. One of those could come along, so I'm warning
you to be [103-104] on the alert. I'd really prefer to have you
where I can keep my eye on you--"
"I'll be all right," she
said quickly. "I'm not going to think about the black side
of things, because that only turns my stomach over and makes me
feel nervous."
"Right. I want to spend at
least a couple of hours in the bush and get in as much work as
possible, for I shall have to make a rope to tow the tree to the
river bank. I shall need the panga, so I'm going to trust
you with the Breda. Here, take hold of it, it shouldn't be too
heavy."
Eve hesitated, then took the shotgun
and found it warm from Wade's skin. "Am I supposed to use
it?" she asked.
"It will give you a feeling
of security. If you see anything move, then you get to me as
fast as you can. You'll know where I am, for you'll hear me slashing
about with the panga, cutting off branches from the tree
and chopping down vines to make a rope. Keep alert, Eve. Don't
get too carried away by the thriller."
She smiled, and again was struck
by the feeling of being so far from all the civilised aspects
of her life that they seemed impossibly unreal--lunch with a girlfriend
in a Sloane Square bistro, a wander around an art gallery, and
maybe a spin into the country for tea-time tennis. None of it
bore any relation to what was happening here, two people struggling
for existence in a jungle full of dangers that could strike at
them without warning.
The river wasn't wide, but it was
running at a good pace, and Eve settled down on the plaid robe
for a rub, beneath the shade of some canopy banyans. "A
little taste of laleia, eh?" Wade said, looking about
him with [104-105] keen eyes, though she felt that it wasn't the
flamboyant butterflies he was watching.
"Laleia?"
"Paradise--Eden." He
spoke quizzically, but when he looked down at her there was something
in his eyes she couldn't quite fathom. "But don't let it
fool you, remember the story of that other Eve and what she found
lurking behind a tree."
He shot a glance at his watch.
"You can stay here an hour, and then the sun will be high,
right above you, and you'll come to me, do you hear?"
"Yes, bwana," she
said meekly.
"And keep your ears
peeled."
"I will."
"Um, now I've got to get to
work." He weighed the panga in his hand. "What
a stroke of luck they taught me carpentry at that orphanage--carpentry
and killing, the requisites of the old pioneers. That's what
I feel like, right now--a pioneer about to tackle a bit of
husbandry."
Eve smiled, but her pulses had given
an alarming jump, as if he realised that he had said something
a little too meaningful, he turned curtly away from her. "Be
careful, be good," he said, and a few seconds later he had
gone among the sombre towering trees and the green curtains of
foliage that fell into place behind his tall figure, the big leaves
folding together to intensify Eve's sudden sense of isolation.
She chewed a nut and gazed thoughtfully across the river, listening
to the sound of birds . . . feeling her drumming heart as it slowly
quietened down.
It could have been laleia,
she thought, had there been no rebellion to fear, no other woman
to remember, [105-106] she and Wade alone, letting nothing matter
except that he had become her world, the vital heart of it, where
nothing would exist but the excitement, the heaven and hunger
of being in his arms.
It was a tumultuous truth she could
only face for a moment, and then she pushed it resolutely out
of mind and bent over the paperback, glad to find that the story
was set in London of the pre-war days, when parts of Holborn had
been very mysterious. In a while Eve became absorbed in the story,
carried away by the mastery of the storyteller . . . it was a
sudden sense of quiet rather than a sound that touched a warning
finger to the base of her spine, sending a shiver through her.
She glanced up slowly, her fingers
clenching on the book. The tiny hairs on the nape of her neck
were prickling and she sensed instantly that something was standing
behind her, ominously still for the moment, but poised to come
at her. Her nostrils quivered, but there was no catlike aroma
to warn her that a leopard was close to her, so that any sudden
movement would be fatal. And she had to turn and look . . . she
couldn't just sit here and be pounded upon.
As Eve turned to look, she clutched
the Breda and felt the sudden moistness of her hands.
Dark eyes were fixed upon her, raking
over her with an intent she understood with sickening clarity
. . . then he began to move towards her, and Eve knew she must
use the Breda and blast him before he got to her. She raised
it and it suddenly felt as heavy as lead . . . he stood still
a moment, the thick lips leering back from the white teeth. It
was like one of those awful slow-motion dreams, and then she had
her finger on the bolt [106-107] and was forcing herself to pull
it back and release the lead into his face, for it was his face
that was so frightening.
The gun fired and the butt kicked
hard against her shoulder, but the bullet had flown wild and before
she could fire again he was upon her and was wrenching the Breda
away from her. Eve felt a terror beyond anything she had ever
known . . . as a scream ripped from her, he had hold of her and
she smelled his sour body odour and saw him swinging the butt
of the gun at her head, and even as she ducked he gave a strange
liquid cry, his eyes seemed to bulge from their sockets, and then
he fell as if pole-axed and Eve saw the knife with its steel blade
buried deep in his back, high up where his spine was joined to
his neck.
"You okay, lady?" Wade
was bending over her, helping her to her feet. She swayed from
reaction and was caught to Wade's body, gripped so painfully hard
that she almost lost her breath. They stayed like that for several
long moments, while the flurried movements of the birds and monkeys
settled down until the most persistent sound was that of the flies
drawn to that silent form that lay face down on the riverbank,
the back of the combat jacket darkly stained where the knife
jutted.
"I--I'm a rotten shot,"
Eve said shakily. "But thank God you heard the gun going
off."
"I suppose you got lost in
that darn thriller." He pressed her to him, as if to instil
some of his warmth and strength into her. "Now forget about
it, honey, it's over and done with--"
"He came up on me like an
animal,"
she said, shuddering. "He was upon me almost before I could
grab the gun, then my shot went wild a--and all I could see [107-108]
was that awful, savage face--another second and he'd have split
my head open."
Then, driven beyond a force she
couldn't control, Eve suddenly flung her arms about Wade's neck
and reached for his face with her lips. She felt the tough skin
and bone of him, and then he was gripping her hands and forcing
her away from him. "There's no need for that," he said,
roughly. "I've got to shift this hog out of the way before
every fly in the jungle comes buzzing around."
"You saved my life," she
said simply.
"It's what I'm paid to do,"
he rejoined, then bending over the dead body of the insurgent
he began to go through his pockets. Eve gnawed her knuckles and
gazed down at Wade's dark head . . . there was no way to stop
what she was feeling for him, for it was right inside her. She
watched as he drew out something from one of the pockets of the
stained combat jacket and carefully examined it, then with a smile
that slashed lines in his brown face he glanced up at Eve.
"This maverick's been following
the river route to the coast--see, his map! It bears out my feeling
that we couldn't go far wrong if we continued by canoe, but are
you still prepared for that? I need time to build the boat, but
now we have this map we could trek it, if that's what you
want?"
"It's for you to decide, Wade."
She wanted to get away from this place right now, and would have
been happy had he decided to pack up then and there. "Are
you going to be able to build the canoe?"
"Sure, there's no problem,
but I need a few days to do it in, and this nasty customer might
have put you off the idea of staying here while I work on the
boat."
[108-109] "I'm not that feeble,"
she protested, and pushed down inside her the urge to get away
without any delay. "And you know what's best."
"It would be best for you,
Eve, to travel by canoe. And there's food around here, and several
wild fruit trees. We can stock up on supplies, and if it's any
consolation I'll let you go bathing later on, when the sun cools
down a bit."
"Thanks," she said drily,
every fly in the jungle and watched as he dragged the rebel into the
bush, followed by
that gauze of flies. He was gone about ten minutes, and when
he returned the knife was back in his belt, and his black hair
was damply tousled on his forehead. "I've stripped the body
and buried the clothes," he said. "Later on the leopards
will make short work of that carcase, and what's left the smaller
animals will devour. Now let's see about our own lunch--d'you
fancy some baked fish and yams roasted in the fire until their
skins crackle?"
Eve stared at him, still deeply
shaken herself, but aware that for him the business of killing
the enemy was an everyday matter, and her gaze followed him to
the river, when he haunched down and cleared his hands in the
water, resting there a moment while the sun dried them.
"We'll head back to camp and
get the fish basket and I'll bait it with that piece of pork fat
out of the beans. We might be lucky enough to entice a catfish
into the trap."
"Catfish?" she echoed,
pulling a face.
"What were you expecting, blue
mountain trout?" He swung the Breda on to his shoulder and
they entered the dim tunnel of trees that led in the direction
of the hut. "A catfish steak can be very tasty, and you'll
[109-110] be asking the head waiter at the Ritz to put it on the
menu when you get back to London."
"London seems a million miles
away," she murmured. "Only this seems real, and I can't
seem to imagine any more what it's like to sit in a restaurant
aimlessly eating a lot of high-priced food and talking a lot of
flippant nonsense about life. I don't think I shall ever be the
sort of person that I was--I don't want to be, not after this
experience."
"You say that now, Eve, but
when you get back to civilisation you'll soon forget your jungle
ordeal with a roughneck soldier of fortune."
"I don't want to forget a single
detail," she protested. "Nor do I think of you as a
roughneck."
"Come again, lady." The
jeering note came back into his voice. "Don't go pinning
a medal of good conduct on me because I saved your sweet neck.
It's all in the line of duty."
"You can be cynical about it,
Wade, but you can't stop me from being grateful to you. You'll
never know how frightened I was!"
"Of course I know how you felt,
having that brute creep up on you, but don't let the gratitude
get all sugared up with hearts and flowers. We're alone together
in a dicey situation and I can do without a girl your age getting
the idea that it might be romantic to live dangerously with a
man in the thousand-tree house."
"The thousand-tree house?"
she echoed.
"The jungle, roofed over as
it is by the tall trees laced together at their crowns to form
almost a solid green ceiling. We aren't Tarzan and Jane, and
don't you forget it. I've made no plans to live in the wilds
with a high-society girl."
[110-111] "What are your future
plans, Wade?" Eve was determined not to let him ruffle her
feathers. She was alive because of him, and the very way he talked
was an indication that he had a code of honour that made him even
more of a hero in her eyes. It made her heart beat fast, admitting
to herself that he had come to mean so much to her . . . a man
whose way of life and commitments to his family meant that he
could never be more than her jungle protector. There was nothing
beyond Tanga but a parting of their ways.
"I never make plans,"
he told her. "A soldier doesn't go in for that kind of dicing
with the gods. He just hopes there isn't a bullet with his name
on it."
Eve felt a clutch of dismay deep
inside her and wished she had the right to hold him fast and be
the woman who come stop him from being a soldier.
"Oh, but you must have a dream
in your heart," she said. "Everyone has a longing for
something that will give them peace or pleasure or a sense of
security. I bet you'd love a farm! A place in the country, with
a couple of horses in the stable, some pigs and cows, and a few
crop acres. Go on, Wade, tell me I'm wrong."
"Dreams are for the young,"
he rejoined, "and I mean to see that my son gets his dream.
He exists because of me. He deserves to have a good life, and
it's what I've fought for--killed for."
Wade looked down suddenly at Eve
and his eyes were steely and uncompromising as the knife in his
belt. "I've waded in slaughter--you just keep remembering
that and you'll soon forget any foolish notion that I could reap
and sow and be a farmer."
"I bet you'd love it,"
she argued.
"Love?" His face as hard
as nails. "What would a young thing like you know about
love? What would a [111-112] mercenary have in common with all
the tender delights of loving anything?"
"There's your son--your wife,"
Eve said quietly. "Wouldn't they like to have you home all
the time?"
"What is this?" he demanded.
"It's like some damn interview for True
Confessions!"
He marched ahead of her into the
rondavel and found the fish basket and the piece of pork fat he
had saved for bait. "You can stay here and do some tidying
up," he said. "I shan't be too long, and this time
keep your wits about you and keep the Breda close to hand. I
don't think another insurgent can be hanging about or that gunshot
would have flushed him out. I'll chop you off some of those big
rubbery leaves and you can do a spot of sweeping out with
them."
"All right," she said,
and couldn't stop herself from casting a nervous look around the
compound.
"To hell with it." His
hand closed on her shoulder, his fingers pressing into her slight
bones. "You can come with me to the river if you promise
not to pester me with questions. My private life is none of your
business, young lady, and if you'll bear that in mind, we'll get
along."
"I'll stay here," she
shook free of his hand. "The hut does need a sweep out if
we're going to be using it for the next few days."
"Are you sure now?" He
handed her the Breda. "If it gives you the willies to be
here alone, then you say so."
"It's something I've got to
get used to." Eve tilted her chin and gripped the gun.
"I can't be at your elbow all the time you're working on
the boat--men don't like that, do they? They like to get on with
the job."
"What would you know about
men, apart from that [112-113] honourable stick you're pledged
to marry?" He suddenly smiled, a quirk of the lip and eyebrow.
"Keep your pecker up and next time shoot straight at the
body and don't hesitate for a second. In
this game, honey, it's them or us. Bye for now."
He marched off leaving her alone,
but for several minutes she was unable to relax and just stood
there, letting her eyes search every ruined mound where a hut
had stood, every tree that cast a shadow in the sun. She listened
to the monkeys chattering away, and to the birds calling and flying
in the treetops. While there were animal sounds she could be
fairly certain that nothing on two legs was creeping through the
bush, but all the same it would be a long time before she banished
from her mind that incident by the river.
She set to work on the hut, clearing
out everything so she could give the floor and walls a thorough
brush-down with the big leaves Wade had cut for her. They had
thick stems and made quite serviceable brooms, and by the time
she was finished quite a bit of the dirt had been swept outside
and she had slaughtered several large insects.
During the course of her housework
she would pause every so often and listen for those reassuring
squeals and thrashings among the trees, and in a while she was
actually laughing as one of the monkeys began to hurl big squashy
bananas at her, red-skinned things that she didn't much like the
look of. However, she decided to try one and found it eatable,
if a trifle on the syrupy side.
The sun was really high now and
she wiped a sleeve across her moist face. She longed for that
bathe Wade had promised her, but she knew she must abide by his
[113-114] decision that it would be best when the sun began to
decline and the benefits of a bathe would be all the sweeter.
To take a plunge while the sun was high would only mean that
within a short while they'd both be sweating again.
He was an exasperating man, but
he knew his way about in this tough, menacing world, and Eve smiled
to herself as she sat on the bundle and chewed sweet banana.
Sunshine splashed across the compound like hot rain, and she would
have loved a drink of water, but knew it had to be boiled first
and their fire was dead.
What would have been her reaction
to him had they met in normal circumstances? At a party, say,
where he strolled in looking dark and distinctive in a dinner-suit,
immaculate poplin shirt and cummerbund, casting casual grey eyes
around the room and letting them fasten upon her in a dress all
frilled and floaty. Would he have noticed her? Would he have
liked the Eve of those days, bandbox-fresh and not unattractive
with her gay young mouth, and her skin looking creamy against
the Titian glint of her hair?
But even had they met like that,
there was still his wife in the background . . . the woman he
was bound to, whom he seemed to avoid talking about. Had their
marriage gone all wrong from the start, as forced marriages so
often did? Was he resentful that she had caught him with the
oldest trick in the book, inducing him to lose his head over her,
letting herself fall for his child so he'd feel obliged to marry
her?
Eve decided that Wade would resent
being forced into a corner, but all the same he had stood by the
woman he had married, and he obviously cared a great deal for
his son. Did he carry a picture of Larry? Eve [114-115] longed
to know. She longed to find out for herself if Wade's son resembled
him.
She found herself staring at his
knapsack, which she had propped against a tree. Had she time
to take a look in his crocodile-skin wallet which he kept attached
to his pouch of medications and other handy items by means of
an elastic band? It seemed a sly thing to do, yet she was driven
by a need not only to see a photograph of his son, but possibly
one of his wife as well. With a quick-beating pulse she bent
over the battered knapsack and undid the straps. Her hand went
inside and rapidly located the oilskin pouch and wallet; she detached
the wallet and opened the flap, searching inside with fingers
that trembled. Her fingertips felt the edge of a snapshot and
she drew it out . . . oh yes, this was Larry, and he was good-looking,
with a shock of untidy black hair, keen, well-set eyes gazing
directly ahead, and the lean, rather serious face of the student.
Wade's son . . . but much as she
searched Eve couldn't find a snapshot of Wade's wife.
"What an inquisitive young
lady you are, foraging about in a man's belongings when his back
is turned! I'm sure you were brought up to be better-mannered
than that."
Eve crouched by the knapsack and
felt the hot embarrassment sweep over her. She was caught out
and no mistake, and as she felt Wade take a stride and halt beside
her, her nerves fluttered madly. "Did you find what you
were looking for?" he drawled. He leaned down and plucked
the photograph of Larry from her nerveless fingers. "Curious
to find out if he was as good-looking as I said?"
[115-116] "He's a fine young
man," Eve said huskily. "You must be very proud of
him."
"He's the best part of me--what
else were you searching for, lady? A portrait of my wife?"
Eve quivered as if the tip of a
lash had flicked her skin, and involuntarily she glanced up at
Wade. His teeth were bared for a moment in a half-savage smile,
and as her face grew hot and pink the devil was agitated in his
eyes.
"May I have my wallet?"
he requested.
Silently she handed it to him and
he replaced the snapshot of his son. "I'd have shown it
to you had you asked," he said. "Fathers get a kick
out of showing off their offspring to people."
"I--it was wrong of me to pry
into your wallet," Eve said humbly. "I don't know what
came over me."
"I think I know." He
tucked the wallet away, and the next instant had hold of Eve by
the wrist. "It had something to do with this." As
he spoke he dragged her against him and she could feel his other
hand gripping her so that her shirt was drawn up to expose her
tingling spine. He plucked her close to him and took her shaking
lips in a long punishing kiss . . . a kiss like no other she had
ever experienced, so unrelenting that she felt her lips going
molten under his mouth . . . felt a tumult of her senses that
quickened into an excitement that made her clutch at him.
Hard and hungry grew the lips that
searched her face, her neck, the strong hand cupping her head
while he moved his mouth over her flushed skin, his other hand
roaming her shoulders and moving down her back to where her body
was bare.
He clasped her slenderness to every
hard line of him [116-117] and seemed careless of all danger now
he had her in his arms. Eve was shaken to the core by what she
felt, and what she had aroused in him. He suddenly lifted her
and seemed to be seeking a place to lay her down--coming to his
senses the very next instant, his breath raking hot across her
face.
"Get away from me!" He
thrust her away from him, not roughly or cruelly, but firmly.
"Oh, Wade--" She just
managed his name, and found herself leaning against a tree, while
he stood dragging a hand across his face.
The static was still alive in her
veins. She had felt a deep falling-through-time into a lush,
heady sweetness she had wanted with all her body, every inch of
her skin, every throb of her heart. Her lips were still burning
as she drew her tongue around them.
"You live up to your name,
don't you?" he growled. "You had to let yourself be
tempted, and couldn't wait to let loose the devil in me. D'you
think I'll let it happen a second time? Not on your sweet life
I won't! If I get you to Tanga, I'll get you there intact and
still innocent enough to fool your bridegroom."
"Y--you kissed me--" she
said weakly.
"You were asking for it, and
I'm not made of ironwood. Well, now you know what could happen
to you, so from now on lay off being curious about my love
life."
Eve lowered her eyes from his face
and couldn't stop her gaze from dwelling on his hands clenched
at his thighs. She had been held to the tempered steel of that
lithe, jungle-toughened body . . . her heart was longing for more
of him and he was thrusting her away and telling her to keep her
distance.
[117-118] The ebbs and flows of
passion had swept over her and she felt strangely weak and unlike
herself. Her pulses leapt so unsteadily and her heart pounded
so furiously, not even when the rebel had crept up on her had
she felt this degree of agitation . . . this loss of self-possession,
so that she hardly knew what to do with herself.
"What would it matter to anyone,"
she heard herself say, "if we made love?"
"It would matter, little one,
if in your ineffable innocence you fell for a baby. Grow up,
Eve!" His voice hardened. "If I made love to you,
I'd go every inch of the way--I couldn't stop myself, with
you!"
His eyes swept her up and down.
"You're made for a youngster, all shining ideals and no
dark shadows in his life. A boy you can have fun with, and grow
up with eye to eye, without having to wonder about his past.
Don't ask me to rob that boy by taking the frosting off his angel
cake--I could do it, Eve, and then you'd learn all about the hell
of regret."
"I'd regret nothing--with you,"
she said, her arms flung out at either side of her, her hands
gripping the tree, something defenceless and yet enticing in the
attitude she had taken, the neck of her green shirt pulled to
one side to reveal the whiteness of her skin.
"You don't know what you're
saying--you're talking like a foolish, romantic kid on her first
date," he said, taking a deep hard breath and thrusting the
black hair from his moist brow. "I saved your neck, so you
feel you owe me something--you don't owe me a thing, Eve, least
of all that sweet, innocent body of yours. Stop flaunting it!
We've got other fish to fry--or should I say bake?"
[118-119] He turned away from her
and began taking fish from the basket, which he had already cleaned
and gutted down by the river. "Will you collect some dry
wood so we can start the fire?" he said casually.
But she couldn't move, all she could
do was say dreamily: "I don't care about anyone but
you."
"What about my wife?"
Wade asked, and it was as if he drove a knife into Eve. "What
of my son? Don't they count when the pretty deb wants a new kind
of toy to amuse herself with?"
"Oh, don't be cruel to me!"
She flung out a hand in a gesture of defence against the way
he wounded her.
"I'm being realistic. You're
just giving way to a romantic urge. It's nothing more than that,
but it's dangerous. Were you an experienced woman of the world,
I'd probably take you and not care a tinker's curse, but you're
half my age and you're in my charge. Sister Mercy knows it.
That good nun left you in my keeping and I won't commit a blasphemy
by breaking faith with her. Now collect that wood and stop mooning
about. I'm darned hungry!"
Aching, desolate, Eve moved about
on the edge of the compound collecting small branches of wood.
It couldn't be true, could it, that she was never going to know
again the passionate delight of finding herself in Wade's fierce
embrace?
She wanted it, that sweet shuddering
she couldn't control . . . that swooning into such an acute aliveness.
She wanted to give herself to him, for there was no shining youth
awaiting her in England, only marriage to James because her guardian
wanted it. Why couldn't she have Wade for this little time that
was left, and know at least what it felt like to belong to a real
man?
[119-120] But she had come up against
something inexorable in that hard, warrior's nature of his . .
. his strange reverence for that big silver cross worn by Sister
Mercy.
He'd crucify the pair of them rather
than destroy the good nun's faith in him.
He had admitted that he was a Catholic,
part of a faith that didn't recognise divorce. Eve was certain
he didn't love his wife, but that wouldn't stop him from remaining
her husband, no matter what he might feel for someone else.
Eve thought of the way he had kissed
her. Passionately . . . madly. But such passion didn't
have to be meaningful for a man who probably hadn't been alone
with an Englishwoman for some time. She had to face that and
couldn't let herself be carried away by a few mad kisses into
the realms of fantasy. Wade was very much a man and the touch
of a woman would fire him . . . that was all it had been. That
was the bleak truth of the matter and she had to accept it.
"Will this be enough?"
She dumped the wood on the ground beside him.
"Fine, thanks." He shot
a glance at her, then slowly lowered his left eyelid in a wink.
"Here's looking at you, kid," he murmured.
Eve turned away from him, her own
eyes flooding with the silly emotional tears. Why did he have
to be bound to some other woman, this tough and tantalising man
who made James seem like a languid, bloodless shadow?
Eve gave a sorrowful, angry shake
of her head so that the tears flew off her cheeks. She was a
woman and she knew she could make him lose his head if she tried,
but that wouldn't solve anything ... it might make him [120-121]
despise her, and she would sooner be his jungle pal and have him
wink at her in that matey way than have him regard her as no better
than those loose women in garrison towns to whom soldiers turned
for brief consolation.
Brushing quickly at her cheek, Eve
turned back to him. "Can I do anything to help?" she
asked.
"Sure, you can go and get the
yams. In just a little while, lady, you're going to have a tasty
meal inside you. How's that strike you?"
"It couldn't be better at the
Ritz," she replied, watching a moment as he laid the fish
on the fire stones. "All we need is the wine list."
"You're forgetting the coconut,"
he said. "We'll open that and make believe it's a vintage
wine--a fine white one."
She smiled and knew the game had
to be played this way . . . the other way was too dangerous, even
though it could have been rather heavenly.